keeping this smile on his face is priority #1!
I said before that I go through stages of relearning, but it was about 6 years ago when I had my biggest revelation. My oldest wasn't very old and if you've read my blog before you would have read about my struggle with PPD after his birth. It was during this time that I was struggling with finding the balance in my life. I knew that I was doing too much but I was hugely conflicted about what my role was, is, should be. It was a disaster. A group of us were discussing the different ways we use our gifts and how we are working in the church. One person flat out told me that what I was doing wasn't enough and I needed to be doing more. I was crushed and I turned to another friend and poured my heart out. It was then that my revelation was on its way, in the voice of my friend.
Friends get you through the toughest times!
We need to find the best way to use our gifts so we don't go crazy. I believe that we are called to serve. Yes! But I also believe that we are all called to serve in different ways, at different times, and to use our gifts to serve. There is no way that I believe that God would want me to sacrifice my children, my home and my husband to put myself in every job out there. At the time I was part of the worship team, serving as a table leader for MOPS and pregnant with my second. My husband was never home and I was pushing myself too hard. I wasn't succeeding at anything and it was taking its toll. I needed to be able to say no and be okay with that. It didn't matter what anyone else thought. It only mattered what was in my heart and in my home, and my relationship with God. Once I centered myself a huge burden was taken from me. So, I decided to go where I thought I was best suited, the nursery. My kids were with me, I could do it whether the hubby was around or not and I had fun. The ladies that were in there were so wonderful to me and my children.
Find your gift, find how to use it in a way that fits into the stage of life your in. It doesn't have to be the same all the time. It might work for you forever. And guess what, that's okay!!! Being a mom can be hard enough without us putting this immense pressure on ourselves to be everything to everyone all the time. Its not physically healthy, mentally healthy or spiritually healthy. We have to find our role in life, in the home and in our life of service.
Do you struggle with this as I do? How has saying no been beneficial in your life?!